WARNING… get ready for a lot of words and no pictures. With a blog name like ‘Sawdust and EMBRYOS’ a lot of our newish readers are intrigued and confused, I’m sure. We hope that our Infertility tab is helpful in clearing up any questions. With that said, we get a LOT of emails from other women struggling with similar issues regarding their fertility and desire for a family. It is one of my ... [ Read More ]
~ and embryos
We’ve been getting a lot of questions from our friends, family, and readers… about when we’re going to get pregnant again. I must be pretty transparent, or y’all can read my mind or something. I definitely have the baby itch… what with two giant almost-one-year-olds and all. Who wouldn’t be ready for another baby or two? At the risk of being a major bummer, we’re going to wait a couple of years. ... [ Read More ]
The Pain of Infertility
The title of our blog 'Sawdust and Embryos' is a reflection of two things that define our lives. Sawdust represents our creativity, carpentry, design, craftiness, etc. And the Embryos? Embryos represent an affliction that doesn't define us, but absolutely has played a pivotal roll in our marriage, our family... our life. While trying to remain sensitive to our infertile readers, our little miracle ... [ Read More ]
The day we found out…
OK, this is my long-awaited story of becoming pregnant. I'm going to give a little background info of the happenings a week before we got the great news. For even more background info, you can read our full IVF story in chronological blog posts here, and read more about our struggle with infertility (backwards chronological) here. It was at this time last year that we reached our $12,000 goal, ... [ Read More ]
I Remember
Its weird, because there are times when I allow myself to feel like a regular pregnant lady. Just another woman incubating a little human life. Like being pregnant is a completely natural gift to each woman. But then there are times when my heart aches for those that are still suffering, barren. I feel the two lives growing within me, and think about how unfair it is for me to have two... when ... [ Read More ]
Don’t give up
. We made this video. Wait till you're at a computer with speakers. The song totally makes it. ... [ Read More ]
NOT pregnant
All this time, I've been using the cheap Dollar Store pregnancy tests... because you're either pregnant, or NOT pregnant, right? So why spend $14 on a pregnancy test, when you can spend $1?Well, here's why:I have a tendancy to see little pink lines that aren't there. I convince myself that I can see a faint second pink line, and that leads to nowhere good. So this time around, I decided to splurge ... [ Read More ]
Wait
One thing I've definitely learned through blogging our story, is that we're not alone in this dark and shameful struggle with fertility. The following poem was sent to me by a new friend who knows what I'm going through to the fullest extent. To be honest, I only make it about halfway through this poem each time, before I either start crying, or want to throw the computer through the window... you ... [ Read More ]
Selfish Me
Sometimes, I like to think of myself as a strong, confident, and independent woman. But the fact of the matter is, I'm none of the above. I wish that I could say I deal with disappointment and tragedy with grace and style... but the truth? I'm a sad little pouting girl, crying until I burst a blood-vessel in my face. I get mad at God, infuriated by pregnant women, and hostile toward innocent small ... [ Read More ]
Empty
I realize I haven't talked much about my inactive reproductive system lately. That's partly to spare you all of my cynicism, but it's also because I've effectively distracted myself... by life. Keeping busy, working lots, crafting, home improvements here and there, painting backsplashes just about every weekend. It all keeps my mind off the only thing that really matters to me. You might consider ... [ Read More ]