I just wrote about 3 full paragraphs, but then I erased it all because it was entirely uninteresting. Lately, it feels like everyday is exactly the same. And while I love being a stay-at-home mommy, I struggle with feeling stranded out in the country, far from town, friends and civilization. It makes for very limited adult interaction for myself, which puts a lot of pressure on Nick when he gets home from work… because he’s my primary source of entertainment. But by the time he gets home from work, he’s exhausted and wants to relax and watch TV. I on the other hand want to have conversation or work on a piece of furniture together, etc.
Additionally, I feel guilty for not contributing to income. And yet, with all my ‘time to think’ during the day, I conjure up tons of fun creative projects around the house that I’d like to work on. My projects are almost always extremely thrifty and DIY… yet a couple cans of spraypaint here, and some decopauge there… well lets just say it all adds up. So I have to be careful how ambitious I am creatively, and consider the full picture. Some projects will just have to be on hold for now I guess, while we buckle down and banish our student loans forever! I have to be careful not to let my creative mind negatively affect our family budget. Especially when I’m not making any money at home all day!
I will say that I’m planning to paint the walls in the bedroom sooner than later. And that dreaded china cabinet is almost done (we had some broken glass issues that delayed things slightly… ok a LOT), so don’t climb under your desk and have a breakdown and start emotionally eating your kids’ Halloween candy. I’m not breaking up with DIY. Just thinking out loud over here.
I’m half tempted to erase these 3 paragraphs too, because it’s all nonsense. But I won’t. Cause then I would have to write something else.